Memorial Day

My aunt told me
    "When I die, I want goodie-bags at my funeral
        of my ashes
    And that when my guests travel,
    they can leave my ashes with their trip."
I looked to my right
    at my sister
And thought
    I want to be buried close to you,
    I don't want to lose you to time.
The thing is,
In order not to lose her to time
I'd have to stay
    grave-neighbor-close
from now to death
    and sometimes, I forget why I try.